Anticipation. Remember Christmas as a kid? When the magic of Santa still lived and the anticipation of what was going to be under the tree when you woke kept you up that night?
I have been anticipating getting this blog up for a few months now and while it’s not quite the same feeling as Christmas morning, there have been many moments over the past few months when those same feelings of excitement and anticipation were felt deep within. First there were months of telling myself I should do it. Finally getting the nerve to say it out loud to myself and then actually saying it out loud to friends. Friends that were willing to help me design it and get it up and functional. I was scared, nervous, anxious and every other emotion that comes with starting something new. There were moments that I questioned myself– should I do this? Moments of I need to do this and moments of everything in between. Yet, the anticipation of doing it always lingered in my mind and it became more of a matter of when would I do it versus will I do it.
This blog is part of the next phase in my life. It is helping me to learn and grow—in many ways that I didn’t even know existed on the technical side anyway. I am fortunate to have many great people who are willing to help me and it is an exciting process that is leading me toward new goals. Goals I have been working toward for years and months. I transferred to Augsburg College in Minneapolis earlier this month. I am running the Chicago Marathon in ten days. Events that that I’ve been anticipating with that same kid at Christmas feeling that will change me and the course of my life forever.
I have thoughts, visions and dreams about where my life is going. I love the feeling of anticipation as life changes. There are always new goals to set and events to anticipate. It’s what makes life interesting, challenging, and joyful all at the same time. As I launch this today, I can’t help but wonder where will it lead and what can I look forward to anticipating next.