For me, this is a big deal. That is actually an understatement. It is a HUGE deal! Those of you that know me, know how much I enjoy college. I enjoy every aspect, the learning, my classmates, the professors, the campus. Everything. It has just been one amazing experience for me and I’ve loved every minute (if you don’t count Spanish class).
In hindsight, I can’t believe how afraid I was to go back to college and that it took me 25 years to go back and finish, but life happened and that’s another blog. I’m almost done and while I’m excited about wrapping up this chapter in my life, in all honesty, I’m also entering a new phase and this one feels so uncertain.
For the past couple of months, I’ve spent countless hours asking myself what’s next? I’ve been waiting for some profound message to come to me in this glorious, bright white light experience. I’ve been coached. I’ve played mind games with myself. I gave myself time, the month of December thinking it (the message or ah-ha) would come, it didn’t. I decided that I’d give myself until I graduate, yet that doesn’t seem right either.
I assisted at a CTI (Coaches Training Institute) training in early January. It was during a conversation that weekend that once again, the subject came up. During the course of one of my conversations it finally clicked that perhaps what’s next won’t come to me because it hasn’t been created yet or, in other words, it’s just not time for me to know!
There are so many options. There are so many things I would love to do, to try. I love coaching, I have an interest in marketing, I enjoy people. I enjoy fitness. I’ve had several friends say to me, “you would be good at a lot of things!”
So, I’ve finally decided to sit back, relax and enjoy this time. I have three months of school left. Enjoy it. I work part-time for an awesome chiropractor that has taught me so much. I have a beautiful daughter getting married in 7 months. I have a lot going on and a lot to look forward to. Life is full.
What’s next? I don’t know….and for now, I’ve finally accepted that is all I need to know.